A Journey to My Master in 3 Parts

 Part II-Doc Hollywood

                                         

Morning awakening: May 24^th, 2012 9:00 AM- what had i done? Rushed to the computer, there i was, a self proclaimed newbie submissive. Boldly listed on the internet for the world to see.

I had paid for 3 months of access so why not look around?  i would never send anyone a message. I looked and looked and became fascinated with what i was reading.  This was a whole world i had not even known existed. Many of the Dom profiles i could not relate to but…..there were a few that seemed like sane, rational people with an edge.  They caught my eye. I knew one thing; if i were to send a message, i would do it in daylight, while i was wide awake and thinking rationally.

A Journey to my Master in 3 parts

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Age Definitely did not Bring me Wisdom

The morning after the session in my last post, I thought that I had 'discovered' my sweet Master being less than truthful. My entire adult life, I have had a very bad habit of jumping to conclusions before rechecking the facts. I have improved over the years, but I still manage to screw it up in critical situations.

So- what did I do? i rushed to judgement and accused him.  Five minutes after my finger hit the send button, I realized my error. 
I wrote a retraction, I wrote an apology, and that awful sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach just got bigger. i had just totally blown off the best thing that had happened to me in decades.

Never Too Old to Be a Newbie

Master is new in my life, my submission is nearly as new.

 My life is not new. I found my submission at the delicate age of 59. It was a very long time evolving.   how i wish i had found it much earlier in life. I feel cheated, somehow. it has been tempting to make up for all that lost submission. I started out along that path,submitting indiscriminately. Age does not always bring wisdom. 

I regrouped. Master appeared. i am His owned slave. He will not allow me to rush into my submission. I must go slowly, i must learn more about the lifestyle., i must learn to savor the kink, the S&M, the service, His control.  I must learn who i am within the confines of his ownership.

This blog is part personal journey, part proof that living does not end at 60, and a tribute to that wise old saying "You are never to old to change."